Hold my hand / Mummy Like every day since you went away my heart has ached for you Belle. I miss you so much and sometimes I feel I will suffocate on my pain and I will never truly love like I once did.
I hope you walk beside me my baby girl and hold my hand. I hope you blow me sweet kisses and know that you have taken a part of me with you.
I lay at night and see your smile and wish I could curl up with you and whisper in your ear like I used too.
Your baby brother is only six weeks from arriving and I know you've whispered sweet messages in his ears and it is so nice to know that only you, Madeleine and he have shared this very special place within me and have all come from Mummy's and Daddy's love.
Sweet girl only you know how much I held you dear and only you know how much I yearn for you.
Missing you / Bney Hynds (Friend) Xmas is getting closer Belle, Mummy says I will be graduating preschool soon ready for the move on to to big school. I know you were looking forward to big school, I hope that you can watch over me and that I can enjoy it for you. You know I miss you to much, I look at your picture on my dresser every morning and just wish you were here. Mummy and me are watching your baby Bro/sis grow on your mummy's blog site, it looks so cute. Well goodnight Belle, I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you, and that I miss you everyday. Love Britney xxx Close
Thinking of you Sweet Belle. / Vanessa Xxxx (Mummy's Friend )Read >>
Thinking of you Sweet Belle. / Vanessa Xxxx (Mummy's Friend )
Hi Sweetheart.
Over the past few months, I have had the honour of getting to know your Mummy. She is one special woman and she is missing you so terribly. She has shared the love that she has for you and made your memory and spirit so easy to miss ~ even for those of us who were never lucky enough to meet you.
Wherever you are, if you can, send her a sign that you are catching her kisses and feeling her hugs. You are in the thoughts of so so many Belle and will never be forgotton. Sweet dreams angel.
birthday/ Britney Hynds (Friend)
I had my party today Belle, it was great fun. Alexia, Sofia,Larissa, Floria,Kaitlin, Katya and Nakita, Madison,Sammy and Sebbie,Jodi,Lauren and Andrea all came. I wish you could have been there Belle you would have had lots of fun too. I missed you and hope you were watching. It will be sad next year when everyone goes to big school and we do not get to see each other so often. Take care of your mummy, daddy and Maddy and keep special watch over your new brother or sister. I would love to see your mummy's tummy but I don't want to intrude ( mum is picking big words for me). Remember I love you and miss you lots and lots. Love always Britney xxx Close
Thank-you/ Nicole Patton (Unknown)
Thank-you for making a difference to the lives of my children and children everywhere. I didn't realise but will now take action straight away. Your beautiful daughter has touched our lives and made our world better. Close
Birthday/ Britney Hynds (Friend)
Hi Belle, I am missing you more than words can say.. My Birthday is coming up soon and I am having a party at Ready Set play. I wish you could be here to come so much.. You will be with me in my heart but it just won't be the same. I hope you are keeping watch over your family and especially your new brother or sister that is coming. I love you Belle. Britney xxx Close
condolences/ Kim Baxter (seen on internet )Read >>
condolences/ Kim Baxter (seen on internet )
hi i just been to the website and would like to offer my condolences. it was a terrible accident and i am with you with the 5 point safety harness we have tried to get our 3 yr old a safer seat and it just not possible. sorry for you loss. Close
Happy Birthday my Bella / Inari (Best friend )Read >>
Happy Birthday my Bella / Inari (Best friend )
To my Bella,
I said happy birthday to you yesterday, I hope you heard me. I loved your bowling party, we had fun. I beat Laura and Hannah at bowling - that's pretty funny!! Noel won though, he always wins. We had chips and minties, yum. We had so much fun at your birthday dinner, I played with your friend Jakaya and we ate lots of yummy food and lots of yummy chocolate cake and ice cream, just for you... I gave you a beautiful fairy, mum said that it is hanging on your cupboard. I really, really wish you were here with me. I said happy birthday to you last night, but I would really love to give you a huggle good night, but, I wrote this letter instead. I love you my Bella and I wish you could come to my birthday party. Love and lots and lots and lots and lots of huggles Inari Jhaide Carrall xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Happy birthday Belle,
I hope you had a good day above the clouds, we saw your star shining so bright last night. Wish you were here.
Love Sky xxxoooxxx
Happy Birthday Bella,
When you smiled, you always made me smile. When you danced you made me want to dance. Happy birthday Bella, we miss you, we wish you were here.
Happy Birthday my Bella / Inari (Best friend )Read >>
Happy Birthday my Bella / Inari (Best friend )
To my Bella,
I said happy birthday to you yesterday, I hope you heard me. I loved your bowling party, we had fun. I beat Laura and Hannah at bowling - that's pretty funny!! Noel won though, he always wins. We had chips and minties, yum. We had so much fun at your birthday dinner, I played with your friend Jakaya and we ate lots of yummy food and lots of yummy chocolate cake and ice cream, just for you... I gave you a beautiful fairy, mum said that it is hanging on your cupboard. I really, really wish you were here with me. I said happy birthday to you last night, but I would really love to give you a huggle good night, but, I wrote this letter instead. I love you my Bella and I wish you could come to my birthday party. Love and lots and lots and lots and lots of huggles Inari Jhaide Carrall xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Happy birthday Belle,
I hope you had a good day above the clouds, we saw your star shining so bright last night. Wish you were here.
Love Sky xxxoooxxx
Happy Birthday Bella,
When you smiled, you always made me smile. When you danced you made me want to dance. Happy birthday Bella, we miss you, we wish you were here.
Belle's Birthday Eve / Mummy
A fifth birthday is something to celebrate, it’s the end of young childhood and the beginnings of the school aged childhood. It is the time usually when they begin to come into contact with people outside of your control and where they begin to experience life bigger than just their close knit family life. You begin to lose touch with everything that happens in their day and you begin bit by bit to learn to let them go.
I wish with all my being that this was the case for Isabelle that she was beginning to get excited about school and us nervous that we were letting her go. But that isn’t what we were given and it’s these events that sharpen the sword that was plunged into our hearts as her parents. To celebrate a child’s birthday and have them not here to participate is an awful situation for us to find ourselves. Our grief is palpable. I think it co exists in our house now like a fourth person, it has a life of its own and lives right along side with us.
On good days I can say that I am so glad that I was privileged to have Belle at all and that I can not allow my grief to overrun me because her spirit is lost then and her essence could simply drift away. On a bad day it mows me down like a freight train and leaves me tortured in the darkest places.
As people know and for those that love us unconditionally, we are going to celebrate her life and will continue to do so, but never for a second think that we are as strong as we look on the outside. That’s the armour we carry to shield us from our own grief and pain. As well as make it bearable for people to be around us.
Isabelle doesn’t miss this birthday like we miss having it for her and she doesn’t miss us like we miss her and to not celebrate would be an injustice to her life, not her personally. We can’t bring her back and I know I could write all day about the beautiful person she was and all the lovely things she did for us, but I guess this entry is about our grief over not having her to mark her fifth birthday and about what these significant days do to us. The living, her parents. This birthday signifies all the special events as her parents that we won’t see fulfilled. About how sad that is for us as well as about the uncompromising nature of the situation Noel and I find ourselves in.
People miss Isabelle and for each person these days signify something different. For Noel and I they have a meaning and a depth of pain that only a select group of people know, none of whom want to know, but have been granted access by the loss of a child. I know those parents that have lost will reach out and comfort us and us them and the saddest thing of all is that none of us can do the one thing we would each like to do for each other and that is give their child back.
To family and friends who love us and accept that grief has moved into our house, but will come anyway and celebrate Belle- despite your discomfort- we are truly blessed to have you. We are fallible, we are human and we hurt. Thank you for not judging us and for staying through all those uncomfortable days. We will love together that we loved her.
Here is something for Belle:
And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation-Kahlil Gibran
Our love for Belle has no bottom; it is endless and goes on and on forever.
I have just read Isabelle's story and watched the film on YouTube.com. My 3.5 year old son is in a car seat, and with our second child on the way who will need this car seat, we were going shopping this weekend to buy my son a booster seat. This morning I had recalled your story on the Today show some months back, and so did a search on the net for more info on Isabelle. Her legacy is that we will purchase only a 5-point harness seat for my son this weekend, which is something I may not have considered necessary had Isabelle's story not been told. Thank you for the courage to share your experiences and give to the world the issue of such safety awareness. It is truly her legacy, and one which will save countless lives. May she forever be the angel in heaven that she so obviously was on Earth. Peace to you all and God Bless. xxx
thinking of you / Chris Marcus (Daycare mum )Read >>
thinking of you / Chris Marcus (Daycare mum )
Hi to all of you I think of all of you everyday and my prayers are with you. All of my older day care childrens parents have bought maxi riders so this is another bonus towards child safety in cars.
Thank you / Chris (Stranger)
Thank you for sharing your story, and helping to prevent such tragedy for other families. We were involved in a serious car accident when our daughter was 9 months old, where we left a wet country road at high speed and hit a pole before rolling the car. Our daughter was restrained in a safe n sound baby seat which the ambulance officers said saved her life. We will make sure she stays in the best child seat we can get, and look for one with a harness when she is ready for a booster. I am so sorry for your loss. We are grateful every day for our baby, and even more so after reading about Belle. Close
You have inspired me / Lisa Smith (none)
hello.. i feel for you from the bottom of my heart the day your angel passed away it was the day before my birthday and i was cuddling my new born daughter blisfully unaware of your heartache, since discovering your story i have been pushed into action. I have started an online petition to fasttrack making it compulsory for children to have a 5 point harness, my son who is about to turn 3 until today travelled in a booster with an adult belt... not anymore.. i hope i can help in any small way, and i thank you for sharing your daughters loss to help others. she Belle will always be an angel in our home. My little girl reminds me of your belle she is unwittingly smart and has the most gentle soul and would you believe the same bowel problems!! bless you and your family.
to anyone that reads this and wishes to put their name on my petition the url is http://blog.myspace.com/sophia_joshua
Times are changing / Britney/Kathy Hynds (Friend)Read >>
Times are changing / Britney/Kathy Hynds (Friend) The time has come For things to change The law is going to re-arrange The rules they should have long ago Before our Bella had to go.
Your mummy and Daddy Have done a great thing, They have made us all proud And changed lots of things.
They have made it safer For children like me To travel in cars And do it properly.
Because we know How hard it has been To stand up and fight And come out and win
For this we thank them And send them our love. And know you are watching From your place up above.
We love you and miss you And want you to know Although you are gone you will never really go.
------------------------------------- Always in our thoughts ------------------------------------- And To Noel & Danielle Congratulations And thank you from the bottom of our hearts for standing up for the rights of our children to be safer while travelling in their cars
Love from Britney & Kathy Hynds. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx